Many times I have loved
Many times I have lost
I’ve had my heart broken
Disregarded and tossed

But this time was different
It was supposed to be
I loved you so hard
You still didn’t see me

See you can’t love someone
Into loving you too
That’s not how love works
It’s sad but it’s true

When someone’s not ready
You can’t make them see
What you have to offer
Or that it’s meant to be

Don’t go down that road
Or you’ll end up like me
With your heart so shattered
You’ll fall to your knees

I gave you my heart
It was all in your hands
But you didn’t want it
I just don’t understand

So why did you come here
So far away from home
Just to love me and leave me
Broken and alone

You took me for granted
Why couldn’t you stay?
This love’s once in a lifetime
And you threw it away

But you had your demons
I knew nothing about
So you pushed me away
And you shut me out

See none of it matters
Or changes the fact
That I love you completely
But you don’t love me back

I wrote this last night, immediately after a beautiful goodbye. I kept waiting for him to say the words I wanted to hear… but he never did.

He won’t turn around
He’s not coming back
He won’t change his mind
It’s faded to black

Now what’s done is done
And he’s too far gone
Too many words have been said
Too much has gone wrong

When I looked in your eyes
I just hoped that you’d say
That it wasn’t over
That you’d come back to stay

So bring back your things
And take back your key
Say you’ll never leave
You can’t live without me

Can we please just start over
Go back to day one
Back to last summer
And those days in the sun

You’re etched in my heart
I won’t be the same
And it’ll hurt every time
Someone utters your name

I wish you’d come back
But I know that you won’t
I wish that you loved me
And it hurts that you don’t

So I’ll suffer in silence
And dream of your smile
I still sleep in your hoodie
And I will for awhile

I miss all those times
I laughed till I cried
And I miss all those nights
You slept by my side

I miss those blue eyes
How they’d stare into mine
I miss all those moments
Still frozen in time

I miss how you’d kiss me
When we walked in the door
Like you couldn’t wait
Even one second more

I flew out to meet you
No doubt in my mind
That I had to see you
At least one more time

You reached for my hand
As we walked downtown
We picked right back up
Like I’d never left town

Under scaffolding on Bremner
In my old neighborhood
When I lived there last summer
A block from where we stood

Then you came out west
And we drove it together
And we started over
That last day in November

See I gave you a home
And I got you a job
I thought we were a team
But I guess we were not

All the struggles you faced
Guess I won’t understand
But I wanted to be there
Just to hold your hand

And there are still nights
I will always remember
Like when I cried on the floor
On the 8th of December

I gave you my all
And then so much more
But you didn’t want it
It was hard to ignore

Now my heart has been broken
Worse than ever before
So I’ll pick all its pieces
Up off the floor

I wish you had told me
To just take it slow
That you weren’t ready
That you didn’t know

But I’d still do it all over
And over again
Good lord did I love you
All the way to the end

I hope that one day
You wake up and see
All the ways I have loved you
All that you had in me

I hope you are thankful
For all that I’ve done
Just know that I’m sorry
That I wasn’t the one

In some other life
Or some other time
Maybe we’ll find each other
Maybe you will be mine

…stop giving up.

I’ll admit sometimes the need to start over stems from something beyond our control… but how we react to these events or situations can be what makes or breaks us.

The dot com is up and running. Who knew what I could accomplish when I just sat down and didn’t get up until I finished the task at hand… Then again, if the dot com is how you got here, then you are already well aware.

My apologies.. at this point I am just building some content for the Web site as it is pretty skeletal right now… but the content will come with time. My current (next) priority is to get some videos recorded, edited, and posted.

In the meantime, if you have any suggestions for the site, for covers, for my life in general…feel free to email me.

Much love, kids.

A

Back on track and in focus.

Been working on some new stuff and on getting back into the studio. My producer and my brother said it best last weekend: “Life gets in the way, but you have to live in order to have anything to write about.” I’m paraphrasing, but you get the idea. Surely relaxed my anxiety about not having recorded anything in awhile.

The Web site has been renewed and is an active work in progress. Should be up and running in the next couple weeks.

In the meantime, here are some lyrics of the latest (and saddest in awhile!) track I wrote yesterday, by the title of One Day:

I used to believe in fairytales and whatever
I always believed that dreams, they do come true
I wish I knew what I could have done better
‘Cause I did everything I could for you

One day you will surely see
What you had in me
And one day you will surely miss
The love that you set free

I used to think that we’d end up together
Until the day you broke my heart in two
Now I know that nothing lasts forever
And all those other lies they tell to you

One day you will surely see
What you had in me
And one day you will surely miss
The love that you set free
One day you will surely see
What you had in me
And one day you will surely find
What makes you happy

I used to believe in fairytales and forever
And all those other lies they tell to you.

-A

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I have been slacking.

I know it’s no excuse but after an absent voice for two weeks, a few trips, working full time, my brother leaving on a eight-month contract, and the craziness of the holidays, I felt a little bit lost and purposeless. It’s funny how, as soon as I picked up my guitar, I felt whole again.

It’s a new year, though. Time to start fresh. Remember why I did this in the first place. Move forward.

I wish you all the best of luck with your resolutions for the new year. Stay tuned for things to come.

XO

“It’s taken me awhile to get here ’cause I didn’t know who I was.”

Words of an unfinished song I wrote years ago.

The dotcom has been set up… the next step is getting it functional. Please bear with me in the meantime as I’m trying to dig up knowledge from my Web design class a few years back and get organized.

For those of you who know (and for those of you who don’t), I live and breathe music. From a young age, it was the only passion that entered my life that remained constant and never faltered. I thought as I grew up and grew older that my dreams of pursuing music would fade. They didn’t. And although it took me years to realize that I couldn’t push it out of my mind, I am here. Better late than never, they say. It’s now or never, I say.

Here I will share with you my music, my thoughts, my inner workings. I hope you like it…

Please stay tuned for much more to come.

In the meantime, feel free to visit:

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www.soundcloud.com/aziawhyte